It doesn’t even feel right thinking about celebrating Eid next week with the state of the dunya like this.
So it has been about a month since this journey has begun. SubhanAllah the days have gone by so fast that it’s scary. The end feels near and here I am intending to get married. The way that I feel about it is indescribable and melancholy. May Allah prepare us all for the end of time and protect thus ummah from the whispers of Shaytaan, the evil of the dajjal and the evils within ourselves. Ameen!
I don’t really know how to continue this. I don’t even want to go into detail. I’ll do my best to fill you in anyway.
About 2 weeks after we made intentions to marry each other I went to his family’s house for Iftar. Ma shaa Allah guys, Ma shaa Allah. I had the sweetest time with the sweetest people and I was so sad to leave when I did.
The day began when my favorite older brother and his wife (my bestie) traveled all the way from Baltimore MD just to visit with me. (May Allah give them so much good for their sweet actions!) They left right after Fajr and could barely afford to get here but they did anyway just to take me to NJ. They went home late at night and didnt get back until after Fajr. All of this during Ramadan.
Ma shaa Allah I cannot thank them enough. That was a lovely day for me. His sisters were so sweet my younger siblings loved the gifts they received. I got gifts too but it felt kind of awkward to receive them. Dont get me wrong I liked them and him but I’ve never done anything like this before or received anything from a guy like that before so I didn’t have any idea how to react.
After coming home and thinking about it, I realized that his family made me feel so comfortable and that was one of my biggest worries. I called one of my best friends the night before freaking out over what to wear only It was a disguise to hide that I wasn’t sure if I’d mesh well with his family. My friend managed to calm me down and come to terms with my insecurities by telling me that “If Allah wills it shall happen and I should only be concerned with what Allah wills”.
So that is what I asked for and it what I continue to ask for.
So far so good guys!
If what I intend to do is best for me in this life and in the next, Ya Allah please bring it to me. If what I intend to do is bad for me in this life and in the next Ya Allah remove it from my life.
Some advice that one of the many amazing people in my life gave me is to always remember that Du’aa. Always remember that Allah and what He wants comes first and that everything else, including your marriage is secondary.
Dua on going out from home
- Bismillaahi ta wakkaltu ‘allal laahi laa hawla wa la quwwata illaa billaah
- In the Name of Allah, I have placed my trust in Allah. There’s no power nor might except by Allah.
"The person who reads this Dua while leaving home will be protected from Satan, and everything that is harmful until he returns and all his works will be completed for which he came out of his house." (Tirmidhi)